i miss you.
Its been a long while since I’ve been on here. I’ve just been so busy. I finally got that job and work 8-15 hour days depending on the cover count. Jake has been gone for just about three months. I miss him so much. Im buying tickets with my next two pay checks to go see him. We Skype but its tough with a 17 hour time difference and we are both working. I can’t wait to see him.
You are so sad. But you are so limited when expressing why. I don’t want you to be miserable. But how can I help when we are an ocean apart and you can’t tell me whats wrong. :( baby :( please
Jake has been gone for over a month now. Which is just terrible. the first month seriously just sucked. he finally found a house! Its a town house and the second house is being rented by someone else from the base. So at least I know someone who will speak English living next to me. Don’t get me wrong I am working on learning the language, but I don’t think it will be as bad of a culture shock if there is someone living by me who speaks my language. I FINALLY found a job. In Ojai, so within a week I will be moving down there. I am going to be making money, I don’t have to pay rent for at least three months. So I can save up for our wedding, speaking of, we actually picked a date, i know I said we did before but we actually talked and confirmed it this time. omg. we have six months Exactly. guys. that’s barely enough time. but. I will be making a decent amount of money. So I can afford it. that means a little less than six months until i see jake again. :] counting down the days.
its just been a month. barely a month. weve talked a lot on skype and through text but i still miss him a lot. we picked a date for the wedding. we have a date!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i have a little more than six months to plan everything. im need more time guys!
Take that 17 hour time difference. We kicked your ass.
Honestly. How can you sit there and tell me you’re too busy to go out and enjoy the town. Too much house stuff. But then you go on facebook and say there’s so much you’ve done and its so fun. I don’t care if you go out and have fun. I realize you can’t sit in the hotel and talk to me every second you aren’t working. But it would be nice to hear from you more than just once a week. My frustration is absolutely ridiculous right now.
so i know i am not an army wife, or a navy wife ( yet! EEK!!:]]] i’m still very excited over this, and let me clarify i am excited to be married to my best friend and love of my life, not to be married to the military ) but watching army wives seriously makes me want to cry, everytime. there’s always something bad that happens where my eyes tear up. or I just bawl constantly. ohmygosh. thefeels.
Here I am cuddled in your blanket. Wearing your hoodie. I snuggle my face further into the blanket. Everything smells like you, I was hoping I could just close my eyes and you being gone would be a dream. That I could open my eyes and you would be here. I don’t want to do this anymore. I just want you to be here. Or to be there with you. That’s just not how it works though. I still have am undetermined number months before I see you again.
Does anybody out there feel me on this one? Because seriously. Its such a large difference ( 17 hours) and I rarely talk to my fiancee anymore. I mean okay I’m lucky he isn’t on deployment because if we mutually out in the effort we can skype every day. But Ive waited four hours tonight. Five hours last night and tonight I won’t get to talk to him at all. Yesterday we talked for probably. 30 minutes but half of that was him just staying silent. I still have no idea why. I feel really lost and all I want to do is talk to him but we can’t text or call like we used to. And I don’t know what to do anymore.? Suggestions? Help?